Making all those changes is not only about getting fitter each day. My weight loss is defined also by my emotional condition. Which right now is pretty low. If not Martin, who keeps me feel interesting, I couldnt cope with my barely-boyfriend being together with my ex-bestfriend. After our memorable date, he had two girlfriends. The first one was with him about a week. And I think that girl might have been same as I. Christy is a family kind of a girl, as he is and that's why they may be well-tuned. Only the time will show.

The second thing- MORE INTERESTING and TO THE POINT:

I'm really proud of myself today. After the lectures I was about to go back home, but there was this idea that came to my mind. I thought that I haven't been in McD for a while and I can eat something there once for few months. But when I drove my way to McD I though of my goals and my efforts for several weeks- not eating bread and high-fat food. Well. After eating those things, I might broke my EVERY rule and I would do nothing but regret it. I imagined myself sitting alone in the car and eating those trushes like a fat pig and saw my mouth being dirty for mayonaisse and feel like crap after that. And of course I would pay for being fatter once again. Do I really want to spend my money for being bigger and bigger. I could save this money and buy myself a carnet for a gym. Much better idea, don't u think? And aint you pround of me, as I am? Cause I've always been greedy and it was hard for me to say no to food EVER. Theres some changes. My life is about appearances from now on and eating is just a devil, that makes me the other way round. 

Xo